Saturday, August 27, 2011

The Dark Reality




I don’t know why I’m unto this, it’s been quite long since I penned down something personal like the present post. May be its all because of positive vibe the Kailash Pilgrimage infused in me. 

I’m unable to answer the perplexing question which my soul keeps on bouncing back again and again that why it’s always me who has to face the burden of darkest realities of the life? Why can’t I sit back and enjoy my success? Why people remember me only at the time of need? Why it’s always that the people I care for backstab me? And, why I can’t be me at times

It’s been pretty long since I cried; I believe boys are born with a hard shell which keeps their eyes at bay from being moist. Yet, today I want to scream at the fullest of my voice. I want an explanation from the Almighty today for all my grief. May be the reservoir of pain has reached its extreme limits which provokes me to behave insanely. I know I can’t be always right but then why I’m always wrong? 

I’m still trying to locate the sacred knowledge which can fill the vacuum and provide my soul some solace. The hunt for the treasure house of truth lies unfulfilled. I want to start afresh but the past haunts me. Sooner or later I will be over with this intense phase and will move on with life because at the end of the day show must go on.

29 comments:

  1. You are not the only one with this kind of feeling ;) It will all be alright :)

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  2. When the going gets tough...the tough gets going.. :)

    Stick it out young man...cry...shed your tears...and then look Life in the eyes..and say..is that the worst you could do...?

    "Why do we fall? So that we can pick ourselves again" (Batman)

    Ok..sorrie..thoda bhasanbaazi ho gayi...Boys Cry...I know..you know...so release it..and then come back stronger.

    All the best

    Kunal

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  3. aww... this makes me sad!

    its alright to cry sometimes, to let it out.. but once uve done that.. get up and start afresh!

    trust me have been there quite sometimes!

    Pray! it always helps the most! =)

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  4. There lies these questns in everyone's life at one or other point of times..

    But you know there will be a reason for everythign that happens to u in ur life...hmm

    Stay calm and look at ur successful things or els, if u think that ur pain level reached max..Cry yes, cry with ur most loved one...let it out and be happy :)

    oops,I think i've spoken alot(Actually I am in a similar mood now :( )

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  5. When you feel low about life and how things are progressing, a good cup of coffee/tea helps.:-)

    This too shall pass.

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  6. Sometimes, crying is the best thing to do. Most cleansing, it is. Feel better soon :|

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  7. Rachit life is not fair is what I have learnt...the best is to continue believing in your goodness and be optimistic.You are young, many doors will open for you.

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  8. Such points when we feel tht BullShit everyone is freak and everything all around is totally absurd.... but belive me this feeling shed with time.
    Hang in there !!

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  9. It's alright to go through low phase at times Rachit ... life isn't fair to any one of us but as you yourself said, the show muct go on ... and you know what? Among these mirk and slime suddenly we get something or someone that make us feel it's all worth living ... all the best. and keep smiling.

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  10. 'Sooner or later I will be over with this intense phase and will move on with life because at the end of the day show must go on'- this says it all!

    There are phases like these which make our soul stronger and wiser...just live through it and d brighter side of tunnel will soon appear :)
    tk cre!


    sarah

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  11. Just a phase Rachit, we all go through it at one point or another. And, yes, Life must go on...

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  12. Life, you know, is far more than being just a word, It's a phrase within itself, brighter today, darker tomorrow, but the cycles continues, like you said The show must go on!

    " An unexamined life is not worth living " Stands true, right!

    Smile, you'll soon get over it. :)

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  13. Thanks all... It feels good to see so many motivating faces.. thanks readers.. thanks friends.. It's better to pen down your emotions then scream aloud.

    Thanks all :)

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  14. Same questions are roaming into my mind too. We do everything for others but at last they neglect us in the times of need~

    And sometimes it happens when feelings across like a harsh wind that evades away our faith and believe in ourselves!

    But we must be determined and brave.. let them come and you let them know that your will is stronger than everything!
    Don't get depressed my dear..everything will be alright soon :)
    take care

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  15. u r right writing it down gives more calm than screaming it out !!

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  16. hang in there...they say the night is darkest before dawn...maybe the sunrise is on its way and everyone, yes EVERYONE is going through their set of troubles...

    those who look happiest on the surface are in fact the saadest! you are not alone and you are nice-good things happen to good people as you would soon realize...so just be patient and don't give up..lemme know if u need a listening ear:-)

    hugs!

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  17. what to say for this. even most of the time i too feel the same. don worry read something good . watch a comedy movie. n forget all about which haunts u:)

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  18. well, it happens with everyone at some stage of their life...so no need to worry about, keep doing the best and be optimistic....:))

    Best wishes,
    Irfan....

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  19. Thanks all.. I'm out of the depression mode now.. and looking for firm for 4 months industrial training.. and @ dazzle I'm a teacholoic which makes me drink a lot of tea/coffee a day.

    @ Suruchi: Thanks for the kind gesture.. will surely tell you if someway down the line I needed a listening ear. :)

    Thanks all :)

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  20. everything happens for a reason. It's just that when you go hunting for that reason, it won't be apparent. Like the butterfly effect, it'll all come rippling down to you one day - till then just hang in there. I had been thinking on the same lines for a couple of months now... but as you said the show must go on...

    Cheers!

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  21. i faced the same situation...n still facing it in a way. ppl backstab you all the time nomatter how much good u have done for them but then we shouldnt keep expectations..especially from humans.

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  22. You are not alone to wonder this, only that many won't well up in frustration. Patience, pal.


    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  23. Hope things work out well for you. Life is that way; we dip to the bottom and then something pulls us out. Have faith. Cry if that makes you feel better and share with a close friend or relative.

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  24. Hi,
    First time here,and I liked it.
    There is something which seems to bother you.I have places a quote at the top of my blog,which summarized my life.And today,another one at the end of the new post.
    Life is a sum up of all the changes.If you are stationary,it is frozen.Whatever,bygones are gone and you cannot do anything about it.Why not learn from the past and move on?

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  25. Take it easy Rachit, its life and you meet such assholes and backstabbers everywhere.
    I guess its not just the case with you.. its with everybody..
    so just don't let these thoughts distract you.. :)
    a 'zadu ki jhappi' form me... *smiles*

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  26. Thanks everyone for the support :)

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  27. I wont say you are being too emo, or that its just a phase and it'll be fine soon :P

    I'll just say that in life when something is missing, the kind of terrible vacuum we feel is not filled by anything. The quench is only filled with some serene atmosphere and nature's music.. :) :)

    Cheers,

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  28. Tanvi: Thanks for the motivating words :)

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  29. When life closes one door, it opens several other new ones. Most times we end up staring at the closed one, for a LONG time.

    Look around...

    I liked the way the post ends on a positive note :D 'The show must go on..'

    All the best:)

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